A fruitful past..

Was talking to tailou over a coffee session. tonight, i ve done something that i ve wanted to do all along. apologize. i did and i m feeling better. like as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulder.

i ve done stupid things in the past and had never had the chance to apologize to this one particular person. and i did. had dinner, chatted and in the midst of the conversation, i uttered the words, 'i m sorry.' and this time, i meant it.

the past 2 years were crazy. i went through things which i didnt think i would. i did things which were unpredictable and reflecting those moments, made me realized that no matter how terrible the things i did were, i have to face the consequences and take actions to correct them, or at least know what i did wrong and try not to repeat them.

one thing that Supercamp taught me indirectly was that i m only human. i do things which i might not thought i would have done, and try to learn from what i ve experienced. i m bad with relationships coz i m very impulsive. i do things without thinking twice when it comes to being in a relationship. that s one thing bad bout me. the other things, i m ok. the past year till now, i ve been hurting ppl and when things turn their backs on me, i get the bomb in my face. nobody would know how i feel. and i didnt study the reasons why i felt that way. my self-esteem was affected without me realising it. as the superwoman, as how some ppl call me, i needed my self-esteem back. i needed to know how to increase my self-esteem once more. i needed to.

i dont regret what i ve done in the past because it s the past that has made me into who i am today. i m human. i learn. i fall. i stand up again. and i always only learn when i d fallen into a DEEP pothole. i learn from the worse experience and i dont regret it. i ve had a fruitful past and i m glad that i ve realised it now and not later.

i ve to start not being too impulsive and start to think with the head, not the heart!

these few days has been crazy for me. leaving the hse at 7.45 am and only get home at 11.30pm is exhausting. GYS is doing great and i hope it ll be what i want it to be. last night's meeting was long but it was fruitful. another meeting tomoro night and i ll get to see most of the team members once more. cant wait.

gotta run..the time is ticking..and did u know that we ve only got 86,400 seconds in a day?and these are ticking away terribly fast! gotta make the best out of it :)