i have never felt this way before. i dunno how to describe this feeling. the months of Sept and Oct have passed by so fast that i canno believe it s 2 months to go before the year of 2008 ends.
so many things happened this year. events that made me stronger, events that threw me in the ocean, events that made me hopeless, events that made me felt loved and also unloved..events that made me grew older.
tonight, my term as the director of the Global youth Symposium 2008 ended. the new board has been elected and my successor, Sim Mei, is one person that i hope will stay on to be the director of GYS 09. i stood in front of the room today, and i felt so proud of everyone who was with me thruout the journey of GYS 08. and tonight, i felt even more proud that those in the board now are those who were with me in GYS 08. and i wish them all the best..i ll be there..to support everything that they do. i will. GYS is my baby.
tonight also, i miss the presence of Yung Tat. i used to talk to him so much about how i feel about things goin on in GYS. but, him being in HK now, i just miss having conversations with him. well, just emailed him a long mail..haha..hope he wont faint la when he reads it!
tonight also, i went thru my list of frens on facebook.there were frens that i havent kept in touch with for so long so i decided to drop them a hello note.and tonight too, i found out that this guy that i liked is no longer single.hmm..well, we had something together but i believe, God has other plans for both of us. he did change my life and made me believe that great things sometimes do happen when we least expect them!am missing him tho. but, nah..no longer have those special feelings for him.
tonight too, i feel extremely tired. i dunno why. i m mentally tired. i m having doubts on lotsa things. i wish things were different. i wish 2008 was different except for GYS. i wish that i did not start a relationship which was never meant to happen, i wish i didnt attend supercamp. i wish i didnt take up the job in mETc. i wish things were different. i wish that i didnt go to Hong kong. i wish i m still back in uni. i wish that i had more time to plan my career instead of jumping into every opportunity that came along. i wish.
tonight, i m relieved, tired and certainly, i m not happy. i dont know why.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
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hey, why are u not happy?
even though everything's changed, but one thing for sure will never change. and do i need to spell it out for u(coz i know tat ur quite a good 'speller' urself, =) )
anyway, do look on the bright side of things:
1. ur gonna be a quater of a century old soon, its time to register urself into one of those antics shops or muzeum.
2. ur still single, alone, unwanted and unloved. you'll probably gonna end up an old spinster with a dog call snoopy.
3. u've had so many failed relationships, that u can practically write a book about it.
4. u are know stuck with a lousy job that require you to slave over it seven days a week.
5. GYS is over so u no longer have the right or excuse to boss a bunch of ppl around.
6. Snoopy's health is deteriorating, so if u dun find a good doctor for her soon, there's a big possibility ur gonna have to spent ur spinster life alone, without a dog, a cat, or even a hamster.
Now, don't you feel much better?
TAILOU!! u are such an idiot!! ahahahaha!! but, sigh....luckily i ve got u..to make me feel BETTER!
hate it when u say u wish u din go for supercamp....grrrr...
hey jean..okies..minus the meeting u, andrea and kee aun part..u know what i meant..haha! it s hittin hard on me!
HUGZ. A big one for you :) Let's meet up soon.
I think, we all somehow hit the 'EMO' mode button....
Maybe this new stage of life is so different that it is weighing all of us down.
Everything happens for a reason. Maybe that crappy M(sth sth) job was to let you know how crappy a job can get if we don't look carefully before we leap into a new job.
Maybe that jerk is to tell you to know the better things that loud and hyper Christine deserve
Maybe Super Camp is a door 4 u 2 feel younger because we r all turning into a freaking old hag
Maybe, just maybe tomorrow you will wake up and met your 'Right guy' in Starbucks.
God is here to give you hope when everything else isn't. (Let's hope that you & I believe in this statement)
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