For a week

For a week, when i close my eyes, i feel the pain that you are feeling.

For a week, when i sit next to you, i feel the pain that you are feeling.

For a week, when i watch u sleep, i feel the pain that you are feeling.

When will u realised that what u have with her is over.

For a week, when i see u cry, i feel like crying too.

For a week, when i see u in a daze, i feel like crying.

For a week, when i see u stare blankly at the window, i feel like crying.

This, u might think that i ve fallen for u. Is that true? I dont think so.

Wake up! She s not coming back anymore. It will take time to recover, but dont take too long.

Love urself first before u learn to love others.

Take care dear.

Ushering in the ending of 2008..

i have never felt this way before. i dunno how to describe this feeling. the months of Sept and Oct have passed by so fast that i canno believe it s 2 months to go before the year of 2008 ends.

so many things happened this year. events that made me stronger, events that threw me in the ocean, events that made me hopeless, events that made me felt loved and also unloved..events that made me grew older.

tonight, my term as the director of the Global youth Symposium 2008 ended. the new board has been elected and my successor, Sim Mei, is one person that i hope will stay on to be the director of GYS 09. i stood in front of the room today, and i felt so proud of everyone who was with me thruout the journey of GYS 08. and tonight, i felt even more proud that those in the board now are those who were with me in GYS 08. and i wish them all the best..i ll be there..to support everything that they do. i will. GYS is my baby.

tonight also, i miss the presence of Yung Tat. i used to talk to him so much about how i feel about things goin on in GYS. but, him being in HK now, i just miss having conversations with him. well, just emailed him a long mail..haha..hope he wont faint la when he reads it!

tonight also, i went thru my list of frens on facebook.there were frens that i havent kept in touch with for so long so i decided to drop them a hello note.and tonight too, i found out that this guy that i liked is no longer single.hmm..well, we had something together but i believe, God has other plans for both of us. he did change my life and made me believe that great things sometimes do happen when we least expect them!am missing him tho. but, nah..no longer have those special feelings for him.

tonight too, i feel extremely tired. i dunno why. i m mentally tired. i m having doubts on lotsa things. i wish things were different. i wish 2008 was different except for GYS. i wish that i did not start a relationship which was never meant to happen, i wish i didnt attend supercamp. i wish i didnt take up the job in mETc. i wish things were different. i wish that i didnt go to Hong kong. i wish i m still back in uni. i wish that i had more time to plan my career instead of jumping into every opportunity that came along. i wish.

tonight, i m relieved, tired and certainly, i m not happy. i dont know why.