IT was year 2007 when i made the decision which was a mistake. It was year 2008 when i continued making the same mistake. In 2009, need not say, i was still making the same mistake.
After a short chat with a friend this afternoon, i was utterly disturbed with some comments that were made and i cannot help but have felt and am feeling that I have definitely failed God and I have shamed my church, my parents and my God.
What i want to know is, how do I get a second chance? I cannot turn back time, that s for sure. But by asking God to forgive me, is that enough? will others accept me for who i am in time to come? will i lose someone if i told my past? will i?
Will i get a second chance? if i stay quiet, does that mean i have not lied? if i pour it all out, will that hurt others deeply?
"oh Lord, I know that I ve sinned. So much so that I dont know how to turn back. I sincerely repent for all those things that I have done. Will others apart from you judge me? Father Lord, what should I do? It wasnt once that i have sinned. It was more than that. I know that i have wronged.
But Lord, thank you for sending this friend of mine into my life who has perpetually reminded me of your teachings. I shall not repeat that mistake again coz i know it will hurt u very much and also someone in the future. Lord, please give me the strength to overcome this. In Jesus' name i pray, AMEN."
Monday, May 4, 2009
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I think the one who truly loves you wouldn't mind your past. It's part of who you are today and if someone loves you today, he will, undoubtedly, to embrace you just as you are. :)
I miss you la listening to 'Bubbly' yesterday night when I was driving home :)
hey hey hey! Mel and Gracie! u guys got me teary when i read ur mails :)
thanks for reminding me and for sharing with me.
It s true that i cant turn back time and it s true that if the one who truly loves me, he wouldnt mind my past. i m not goin to walk away from God again..i think he must be swallowing lotsa panadols coz of me la..i shall not once more go down that path :)
thanks best friends! hugss! when we meet up, i ll give u guys a HUGGEEE HUG k? :)
My darling Khai Jie, no matter what others think of you, rest assure that God still loves you for who you are. The past, present and future you are all within God's plan. No mistakes made!! NO! NOT AT ALL!!
Even if there's something you regret doing, God embraces all of them, so are we. We appreciate you for who you are - CHRISTINE CHAI EN NING! YOU, YES YOU!! =)
Put all the things at the foot of the cross and move on with life, never repeat what you've regretted doing. Remember that God is more interested in WHO YOU ARE than WHAT YOU DO!! =) Take care and stay strong! *hugs*
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